stoneup: (...*That's* your plan?)
Trevor Belmont ([personal profile] stoneup) wrote2018-12-28 07:35 pm

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goneforawalk: (kind of shocked and you'll feel deprived)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 07:12 pm (UTC)(link)
She'll understand why I waited, in any case.

[ she grants him leeway when it's important, when it means everything. to have time to process without having to report back is... important. he doesn't want to cry in front of trevor but he especially doesn't want to cry in front of integra, who knows him well enough to know how far gone that moment would be.

he doesn't want pity.

when trevor shifts alucard follows instinctively, taking another drink and leaning into him slightly. not a lot, but enough.

he finally smiles faintly, a little wry. ]


I keep thinking I wish I'd known sooner so I could have at least buried her.

[ where had she been? on the airship, with everything else? it had been utterly destroyed, which means so were her remains. he winces slightly to think about it. ]
goneforawalk: (you wouldn't move)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 08:04 pm (UTC)(link)
[ alucard's relationship with integra is complicated. he loves her, in his own way, but it's not a romantic love. it's a love that's difficult to place and quantify. he's obsessed with her with ever fiber of his being, and he respects her above all else. she's an ideal that no one else can even aspire to, to him. powerful, steadfast, but not unkind.

he'd be happy, if the people he enjoyed the company of all knew her. even if it means knowing he's shackled, he doesn't care about that. not like he once did.

he considers trevor's statement a moment before nodding. ]


I'm sure there's space on the grounds.

[ back home. he's not going to sully her by putting one in this place. better that hellsing have a memorial to the woman that helped destroy dracula. ]

There was a novel, written about us. [ thoughtful. ] The end of it isn't accurate, but most of it is.
goneforawalk: (streets are empty)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 08:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[ it's a very similar obsession, really. in contrast to his sorrow now, if something happened to integra he would burn the whole world and himself down to avenge her, and he wouldn't rest until it was completed.

that's just how he is.

as for the novel, he huffs out a weak laugh. ]
You're right. There are plenty of stories, but I think that one's the most enduring. People love it because I lose at the end. It gives them peace of mind knowing that monsters can lose.
goneforawalk: (at the seams)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 08:26 pm (UTC)(link)
That's very true.

[ he's thoughtful a moment, before nodding. ]

It was mostly letters transcribed directly. So unless he changed the contents, it seems realistic enough. I've read it a few times over the years, just to see how they all thought about things. It's... interesting, if nothing else. How meticulous their planning was.
goneforawalk: (your best bet is to stay inside)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 08:36 pm (UTC)(link)
It's all very one-sided, but yes.

[ most people think it's a fictional account, of course: no one wants to believe that dracula was real. alucard pauses and then shakes his head, frowning. ]

I was never granted access to their letters. I just have the book, which is as close as I'll get.
goneforawalk: (love enough and you'll start to bleed)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
I agree. It's better than nothing.

[ he nods his thanks for the top up, taking another drink just after. at least he's going slower, now. ]

No one wants my side, it's awful. It'd all be missives to my servant and complaining about how the humans just don't understand that they should give me what I want.
goneforawalk: (my demon friend)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 09:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I was absolutely insufferable even when I was pretending to be nice. Renfield was the closest thing to a friend I had, and I was controlling him for my own gain.

[ a mess. at least he's cognizant that it was bad. he seems like it anyway. ]

It feels... better, to be rid of all of that.
goneforawalk: (where to go)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 09:33 pm (UTC)(link)
It was difficult to fathom at first, and even more difficult to admit, but I do better with a driving force.

[ a sigh. ]

If that takes being leashed, so be it.
goneforawalk: (how to behave in this place)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he snorts. ]

It takes the right person. I bucked against my first master until the day he died. Tried to kill him whenever he slipped up. But he was... a special case. His son was marginally better, and now there's Integra.

[ let's not talk about how he was gonna eat her. anyway he likes getting stepped on, how dare you not make the joke. ]
goneforawalk: (don't you know every little thing)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 10:19 pm (UTC)(link)
[ and now he's choking on a laugh, thanks trevor. he takes a drink before he answers. ]

I wish that were the case, but I do have a type and it's 'willing to tell me to shut the fuck up.' [ he smiles faintly, reminiscent. ]

He was the one that defeated me, that came the closest anyone had to killing me.
goneforawalk: (where to go)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
The reason I'm immune to everything is because he experimented on me for years. I'm not as I once was, but he wanted to use me as an unstoppable weapon, so it suited his needs.

[ another faint snort. ]

He was definitely boastful. I used to ask him where Mina was, just to know she was still alive, and he would hold it over my head but never tell me. He was very... proud, to have Dracula under his thumb.
goneforawalk: (you wouldn't move)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he's oddly... blase about it, now. but perhaps it's because it's been over a hundred years and also abraham is fucking dead. finally. ]

That's definitely how it feels. Instead of a tool or a monster, I'm a person. What a strange feeling, after a hundred years.

[ to be stripped of personhood for a century is... a lot, really, and he's still struck by it at times, the thought that to integra, he's not just a machine. ]

He was... zealous, and used many of the same methods I did. Intimidation, pain. He wanted me frightened of him. [ a slight shrug. ] It never worked, but it was a valiant try.
goneforawalk: (mama taught me not to talk)

[personal profile] goneforawalk 2019-01-21 10:49 pm (UTC)(link)
It's doubly strange here. At home, the only people not afraid of me are members of Hellsing. Here, the only person scared of me is Rip.

[ it definitely makes it easier to socialize when people aren't terrified of you, though. ]

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